Dis·pos·a·ble

dis·pos·a·ble
Noun
An article designed to be thrown away after use.

de·fec·tive
Adjective
Imperfect or faulty.

These two words describe how I’ve felt about myself for as far back as I can remember.

The best way I can explain it is by comparing myself to your first beater car—you know, the one your parents helped you buy for $1,500. The one with no AC, manual windows, made weird noises, and had peeling paint. The car you were embarrassed to drive, but it was “good enough” to get you from place to place. Just something to use until you could afford something better.

That’s how I viewed myself: a 1999 Toyota Corolla—a placeholder for something better. Eventually meant to be gotten rid of. Useful when desperate, but never chosen, never truly wanted, never deeply desired or kept. Maybe good enough as a supplement, but never as a forever.

In the world of therapy, we call this a negative core belief—a belief that is false, often shaped by trauma, and distorts the way we see ourselves in the world. Many of us carry negative core beliefs like:
I’m not good enough.
I’m unlovable.
I will be abandoned.
I’m powerless.
I am a failure.
I am not smart.

And the list goes on.

From a faith perspective, I know these beliefs are tactics of the enemy. If we believe these lies about ourselves, we become powerless—and we lose sight of who we were truly created to be. We lose sight of who we are and the identity that God has given us. Without our true identity we walk through life feeling like something is missing, lost, and desiring a deeper purpose.

The thing I’ve learned about identity is that it’s not something we create—it’s something given to us to discover and develop.

To fully grasp this, we have to remember who we are: we are created, not the Creator. Yet the Creator, in His love, gave us the ability to create as well. And when we create—whether it’s tools, art, systems, or infrastructure—we create with purpose.

So, what happens when something is used outside of that purpose?

What if we didn’t know the purpose of a toilet and used it as a trash can?
What if we used a sink as a toilet?
Technically, both could serve dual purposes—but we’d never use them that way, because that’s not what they were designed for.

In the same way, many of us live life believing lies about our identity—and we try to find it for ourselves, outside of what we were made for. Sure, a butter knife can unscrew a screw, but how much better is it when used to spread butter—and the screwdriver used for the screw?

Just because we can function in certain spaces, it doesn’t mean that is what we were intended for.

So many of us are living like this—misaligned—and deep inside, we know something’s off. That misalignment robs us of peace, and it can even lead to anxiety and depression.

So why is Satan coming so hard after our identity?

Because if an entire generation doesn’t know who they are or what they were created for, they can’t serve God’s purpose. They live confused, ineffective, and vulnerable to anything that sounds good but isn’t God.

As I write this blog, I can hear myself going full spiritual mode—so I'm saying, "Okay Briana, make it practical." Yes, we are spiritual beings, but let’s break this down in a way that’s clear. Teacher mode: activated. Keep these core points in mind, because they are foundational for everything else in this message:

1. God is GOOD. He is perfect. He cannot lie. He has spiritual forces on His side (angels), and He exists as the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. (Numbers 23:19)
2. Satan was once an angel in heaven who chose pride and rebellion over submission to God. Because of this, he was cast out of heaven, and a third of the angels followed him in his fall—these are what we now call demons.(Revelation 12:9)
3. Satan is completely separated from God. He lies and cannot speak truth. His mission is to steal, kill, and destroy everything God has given to mankind. (John 10:10)
4. God created man and called His creation “good.” He gave us power and dominion over the earth. He created us to be in relationship with Him and to display His glory. (Genesis 1:26–28, Genesis 1:31)
5. Satan and our flesh constantly tempt us to break the relationship between man and God through sin. (James 1:14–15)
6. Sin is not just a list of restrictions—it’s anything harmful that goes against the character of God. It hurts us and pulls us away from who we were created to be. (Romans 6:23)
7. God forgives sin through the shedding of His Son’s blood. Since the beginning of time, God has been pursuing us—repairing the broken relationship between Him and humanity. (Romans 5:8, Hebrews 9:22)
8. God wants us to return to our original design:

• Knowing Him
• Knowing who He created us to be
• Reflecting Him to the world—by walking in relationship with Him and becoming the version of ourselves that He intentionally created. (Jeremiah 1:5, Ephesians 2:10)

Okay, blogger mode reactivated. I want to focus the rest of this writing on that last point. God wants us to return to knowing Him, knowing who He created us to be, and reflecting Him to the world by being the version of ourselves that He created

If Satan can come in and tell us lies—that we’re not good enough, we won’t accomplish anything, no one loves us, we’re not smart enough—then we will never walk out our purpose:
To have dominion.
To reflect God’s glory.
To believe that God is honest.
And most importantly, to believe that God loves us, likes us, finds us valuable, wants a relationship with us, and wants to use us.

When we believe Satan's lies, We become stunted.

I know this is hard to believe sometimes—especially as our society shifts more toward secularism. But we are spiritual beings living a carnal experience. The Bible says our battle isn’t against flesh and blood but against spiritual forces. This war started before us. God created us for Him and sees us as His children—and Satan is just being a hater trying to drag us down with him.

The Bible tells us to resist the devil, and he will flee from us (James 4:7). One of the main ways we do that is by putting on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:11). While I won’t go into detail about each piece right now, I want to highlight the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.

When negative beliefs about yourself come,
When you feel stuck or lost,
When you’re afraid to be seen or known for who God created you to be because of insecurities—
Pray first.
But then fight back with truth.
Fight back with the Sword of the Spirit—God’s Word.

Here are just a few of the truths God speaks over you:

"I made you in My own image. In My image, I created you—male and female, I created you."
📖 Genesis 1:27 (NLT)

"You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Everything about you—I crafted with purpose, and I don’t make mistakes."
📖 Psalm 139:14 (NLT)

"My thoughts about you are precious. They can’t even be numbered—they outnumber the grains of sand. I am with you, even when you sleep and when you wake."
📖 Psalm 139:17–18 (NLT)

"I proved My love for you by dying for you— not when you were at your best, but while you were still far from Me."
📖 Romans 5:8 (NLT)

"You are the head and not the tail. You will always be on top and never at the bottom—if you trust Me and follow My ways."
📖 Deuteronomy 28:13 (NLT)

"I know the plans I have for you. They are good plans—plans to give you a future and a hope."
📖 Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT)

"You are My chosen one. You are royalty, part of a holy nation. I pulled you out of darkness so you could shine My light to the world."
📖 1 Peter 2:9 (NLT)

"You are the light of the world. You were never meant to be hidden. You were created to shine."
📖 Matthew 5:14 (NLT)

It is my prayer that we all meditate on these scriptures and that it settles within our souls. I pray that we remember our identity was known before we were born. Our being is not a mistake, but rather created on purpose, for a purpose, by a perfect God, who calls us his children.

The enemy knows how powerful we become when we believe what God says about our identity, when we walk in obedience, and when we let his glory shine through us. If he can keep us confused, insecure, or searching for worth in all the wrong places, he can keep us from fully stepping into what God created us to do.

Let us remember truth. God already defined us.
Our job is to remember and accept who we’ve always been in Him- Loved and Chosen.

"I AM and you are mine" -YHWH.

-Briana Breathes